I said in the beginning of my blogging that I wanted and still want to be Real.
I don't want to make stuff up,or attempt to be someone I am not so that I have hundreds,thousands,etc of followers or readers.
I want to keep it Real.
As many of you can tell I'm by know means a great writer,but what I am is a normal human-being the Lord created.
I am a plain jane if I do say so myself.I don't care what I throw on to wear,I don't care for make-up,and I don't look to have the best of the best.
I don't like to ask for help I am independant,but I will ask for prayers.
I'm a sinner, yep...I fall daily into satan's traps.
Praise the Lord He forgives me and although I'm a sinner He loves me.
I am saved by th grace of Jesus Christ....but that don't make me perfect.
I don't wanna be one of those people who pull God out just when I need Him, I want Him beside me at all times because I need Him all the time.
I am just like anyone else out there, I want to be loved,liked,for other's to care for me.
I'm not begging for comments,or followers.However, it would be nice if someone showed that they care.
I do have a few faithful readers and I thank the Lord for each of you.
I need encouragement just as much as the next person.
I feel so seperated from so many as I am a babyloss momma,yet I don't fit in because alot of you have gone on to have beautiful rainbow babies, no I am not jealous I am beyond happy for you and rejoice for you,but I feel left out...
I don't belong...only in babyloss land.
But, I am more then a babyloss momma.
I am a wife,step-mother,mother,step-grandma,daughter,sister,friend,daughter-inlaw,sister-inlaw,granddaughter and I could go on and on,but I won't.
I guess what I am trying to say is I am hurt,sad,and upset.
I have very few true friends in blogland...and I thought this was a place I could come to and find friendships.
I am not trying to start a fued with anyone by no means,but I find it so hurtful when someone askes for prayers and you tell them your praying and you do...and their prayers get answered and then it's like that person don't know you anymore!
They stop talking to you!
I find it funny when someone emails you asking you to leave comments on their blog when they don't even leave you a comment!
I have wanted to leave blogging for so long, and I have mentioned several times about going private...BUT I stay and keep it all public.
I feel like deleting everyone that don't speak to me anymore, and just be done and move on...that's what they have done with me at least.
I have contacted someone I looked up to in a time I was feeling very down and this someone had asked me to pray for them before and they had their prayer answered and when I went to them I was told basically, look I really don't have time for this as I am overjoyed with my own life and don't want to be dragged down this happened a couple of years ago,but I continued to be a faithful reader,commentor,and friend yet she never spoke to me since.I recently commented on a blog and my comment was rejected and I was sent an email stating please never comment on my blog again.All I had said was their child "was and is beautiful" before and after sugery.
I just feel like no one cares, but a handful of people and I thank God for each of you,but I am tired of being hurt by so many.
This is some of the reason I don't blog like I use too, I feel like it is a waste of time and I am sure this post is a waste of my time too.
From now on I blog for my memory, my husband memory,for my children to look back and read.
From now on I will visit Only certain bloggers that I feel are my friends and I am going to adventure out and find new blogs to read and stop being hurt by those whom I thought was my friend(s).
I don't want to make stuff up,or attempt to be someone I am not so that I have hundreds,thousands,etc of followers or readers.
I want to keep it Real.
As many of you can tell I'm by know means a great writer,but what I am is a normal human-being the Lord created.
I am a plain jane if I do say so myself.I don't care what I throw on to wear,I don't care for make-up,and I don't look to have the best of the best.
I don't like to ask for help I am independant,but I will ask for prayers.
I'm a sinner, yep...I fall daily into satan's traps.
Praise the Lord He forgives me and although I'm a sinner He loves me.
I am saved by th grace of Jesus Christ....but that don't make me perfect.
I don't wanna be one of those people who pull God out just when I need Him, I want Him beside me at all times because I need Him all the time.
I am just like anyone else out there, I want to be loved,liked,for other's to care for me.
I'm not begging for comments,or followers.However, it would be nice if someone showed that they care.
I do have a few faithful readers and I thank the Lord for each of you.
I need encouragement just as much as the next person.
I feel so seperated from so many as I am a babyloss momma,yet I don't fit in because alot of you have gone on to have beautiful rainbow babies, no I am not jealous I am beyond happy for you and rejoice for you,but I feel left out...
I don't belong...only in babyloss land.
But, I am more then a babyloss momma.
I am a wife,step-mother,mother,step-grandma,daughter,sister,friend,daughter-inlaw,sister-inlaw,granddaughter and I could go on and on,but I won't.
I guess what I am trying to say is I am hurt,sad,and upset.
I have very few true friends in blogland...and I thought this was a place I could come to and find friendships.
I am not trying to start a fued with anyone by no means,but I find it so hurtful when someone askes for prayers and you tell them your praying and you do...and their prayers get answered and then it's like that person don't know you anymore!
They stop talking to you!
I find it funny when someone emails you asking you to leave comments on their blog when they don't even leave you a comment!
I have wanted to leave blogging for so long, and I have mentioned several times about going private...BUT I stay and keep it all public.
I feel like deleting everyone that don't speak to me anymore, and just be done and move on...that's what they have done with me at least.
I have contacted someone I looked up to in a time I was feeling very down and this someone had asked me to pray for them before and they had their prayer answered and when I went to them I was told basically, look I really don't have time for this as I am overjoyed with my own life and don't want to be dragged down this happened a couple of years ago,but I continued to be a faithful reader,commentor,and friend yet she never spoke to me since.I recently commented on a blog and my comment was rejected and I was sent an email stating please never comment on my blog again.All I had said was their child "was and is beautiful" before and after sugery.
I just feel like no one cares, but a handful of people and I thank God for each of you,but I am tired of being hurt by so many.
This is some of the reason I don't blog like I use too, I feel like it is a waste of time and I am sure this post is a waste of my time too.
From now on I blog for my memory, my husband memory,for my children to look back and read.
From now on I will visit Only certain bloggers that I feel are my friends and I am going to adventure out and find new blogs to read and stop being hurt by those whom I thought was my friend(s).
